Pushing My Limits

by cognitivelycomplex

Sleep has, once again, escaped me.

This time, I woke up at 3:00 AM, and as I turned over to peep my phone to show me exactly what time it was — I was wide awake. I rolled into work at a little after 8:00 AM, groggy and tired. Most of my day has been a complete blur, kept alive only by the constant flow of shitty coffee and my will to continue getting things done.

I’m convinced the issue is my inability to shut my mind down for the evening. Stress could be playing a factor, although I really don’t feel stressed. I read a lot of intense analysis and coverage of current events, sports, and technology during the late evening hours. It gets my brain churning, usually leading to lengthy sessions where I write down ideas into a notebook before I head to bed.

When my shoulder was 100%, I would work out after these sessions. That would usually do the trick, exhausting me to the point where bed was a much-neededĀ break from the misery of a Crossfit workout or a rings workout. I haven’t had that in awhile.

But that certainly hasn’t been a cure-all. I’ve had issues even after pushing out an entire 5×5 Stronglifts workout followed by a 20 minutes HIIT session.

The plan is to begin a wind down routine about an hour and a half before bed. No electronics, no consumption of news analysis, nothing to trigger the brain from churning and churning to find a solution to the world’s problems. It’s tough to do that because that’s my job, and I’m very good at my job.

I’m also heading back into my workout routine full-time this week. I won’t be able to go completely 100% on my shoulder just yet, but I’m almost there. It’s at about 80% right now, and I’m still working it with shoulder-strengthening exercises. That should put the axe on this issue, shouldn’t it?

God, I hope so.