Taking It Easy
Obsession. It’s a pain in the ass.
For many ADD’ers like myself, it’s a well-known time waster. Like a cat searching for that red laser pointer, we “hyperfocus” on things and become obsessed. In my early college years, this usually manifested itself as a deep desire to defeat a challenging video game, or head out to the pond to play hockey for hours on end. Harmless fun.
This obsessive hyperfocus is likely one of the reasons I’ve been successful in my career as well. I haven’t run into a problem I haven’t been able to figure out, mainly because I obsess about finding the solution. Early in my career, that helped me get noticed and ahead. Nowadays, however, everyday problem solving is left to people underneath me who are trying to get noticed and ahead. I’m tasked with solving bigger problems, and they require far more thinking.
Solutions eventually come to me, but at my level — the stress has increased substantially. This is a problem.
Throughout my whole life, I’ve been Mr. Laid Back. I was the epitome of “Take It Easy”. I never let anything stress me out. So, I’m a little outside of my comfort zone. This week, I was completely out of my mind on Monday and Tuesday, but today — I was able to complete all of my work and let out a sigh of relief. Unfortunately, it’s difficult for me to unwind because I know there are more problems lurking around the corner.
I’ve only felt this anxiety and stress at a few other times in my life. Usually within the rollercoaster of emotions that a bad relationship brings. Is my work life becoming a bad relationship? Or do I need to learn how to manage? How can I get back to the days of taking it easy?